Yesterday was pretty rough and I'm ashamed to say I lost my patience. I was helping hubby into the bathroom, his legs were very weak..and gave out and he went to the floor in slow motion. It was an hour and a half before he would get up. I kept telling him to get on his knees and pull himself up at the sink, but either he couldn't figure out how to do that, or his stubbornness kicked in!
Hopefully his legs will be better today.

Hubby is still on the thing about his little brother :(.  I feel so bad lying to him, but I feel I just have to.
 He hasn't fallen for awhile, which is good!
  Sometimes I just look at him and feel so sad for him..and for myself. He isn't the man he used to be anymore. This disease has striped him of his pride, determination and zest for life. I didn't think I'd ever see the day he was content to sit and watch TV all day...but that is his life now.

Oh boy..today hubby is still on the thing about his brother. His daughter and I both told him his brother is working nights and sleeping days. I hope I can keep this up :(...I feel so bad for him!

I haven't been here the last few days. I've been working quite a bit, getting ready for my fall shows.
 The last 3 days have been very difficult with mu hubby. He keeps asking me where his little brother is. That brother passed away 25 yrs ago! I don't want to tell him that because I'm afraid he will grieve all over again. So..I just keep saying " he's probably at work..or maybe he's asleep"...thinking of everything to say hoping he will forget so that I won't have to tell him his brother has passed :(
 Yesterday we went 'round again about wanting to go "home"..I tell him "we are home", he gets angry..I walk away. This he told me he was going to call the cops because " One of us is looney" were his exact words. I had him sit down and I explained to him about this mobile home and how we've been here for 9 months already and he doesn't remember because he has a "problem with his short term memory"...He seemed fine after that. Some days this Alzheimer's is just exhausting..for both of us. I don't like having to make all the decisions myself about everything..but I do it! It makes me not so popular with some people but I have to do the best I can for us...I'm tired

A very bad start to the day. Hubby woke me up at 7am. That's the time I usually get up, but no coffee before I started my day...grrr
For some reason my lil Winston keeps barking, as a matter of fact I thought he was going to bite hubby this morning..My Tiger is needing extra love...Just one of those mornings that everyone needs something from me before my eyes are even open yet...LOL

Rough day yesterday...Hub's got up at 9:30 am, and promptly fell down. I was able to get him on his feet, but he went to sit in his chair and missed the chair seat. So he ended up laying on the chair seat, with his butt on the reclined foot thing for hours. He wouldn't even try to get up.
I grabbed ahold of him a few times to try to pull him up..and only managed to hurt my back.
Finally his daughter got here and we were both able to get him into the chair right...at 1:40 pm..
uggghhhhhhh

I had a nice 4 hours to myself yesterday:)
Hubby is getting confused more and more about TV and reality. He jumbles them together.
He will tell me about someone on TV "that that person can help us". Of course he's much better the first few hours he's up. The late afternoon is when he starts the "Sun downing"...very sad..and very upsetting to see :(
 I am going to try and stay in my studio and get some work done today. It's just a few feet from where he is sitting, and I can hear everything, and check in on him.